March 23, 2014 I will never reach 250 lbs!

Ok, so once again I have tipped the scales and the numbers that show up are beyond what I feel like I look like. It is March 23,2014 and I am ready for a change. Up until now I always put off dieting for one excuse or another, but not this time, there is not baby coming, there is not job standing in my way, and there is not more excuses! If anything I should be telling myself, I have four children, and a wonderful husband that I want to spend a lifetime with, that should be enough, right. YES! So here I am night one and HUNGRY, but better yet determined. The journey is long and I am sure there will be ups and downs, but that is why I decided to blog about it. When I feel hungry I am going to keep my finger busy typing, rather than popping a chip or spoonful of ice cream into my mouth. So here I start my journey at 241 lbs.

 

This was the first photo that made me realize I am in trouble. Although this is over a year old, it was the first time I saw the proofs on these family photos that it hit me, I need a new me, but with busy life I put it on the back burner... Not anymore! Here's to a new me!

Week One Down 3.9 lbs.!

I stepped on the scale Sunday morning and was so excited to have lost 3.9 lbs.! It is going to be a long journey and I have just begun but I am determine, dedicated and humble about this adventure I have committed myself to this change.

Here are my motivators that I am sure I will need to refer to often, especially those no lose weeks!

1) My husband!- He is my number one motivator. I believe you have to truly love yourself before you can truly love someone else. I want to be healthy for him so as we age we can only build a life together of activity, traveling and many more things. I love him with all of my heart and I want him to love my outside as much as he loves my inside.( Note: My hubby has never made any comment about being unhappy with my size, curves or saggy boobs!)

2) My four children! They are another motivator to keep going. I want to be around for  all the wonderful and exciting things in life that they will experience, high school graduation, marriage, college, children of their own and many more milestones.

3) Career- I am a first grade teacher and although my students love me, I am always  a little self conscience of how they hug me and hit into my boobs. My plan is after losing this weight to have a breast augmentation if still needed. I want to be able to walk in between the desks and not worry about whether I am going to hit into a paper or other object. I want to be able to be active right along side my students.

4) My self- Although this should be the number one reason, its not, and the reason being is I can talk myself out of anything. Which means on a bad day the devil on my shoulder will make me feel like a million bucks. So with that being said, myself is a motivator, but not the top. I want to be fit for myself, I want to walk into Maurices ( my favorite place to shop) and not have to head to the back where the plus sized are. I want to be a size that I can find anything in. I have vowed to not buy another piece of clothing until I can buy a size 18, and then a size 16 and further I hope one day to be a size 14!